Where The Rubber Meets The Road

I can be sometimes very...challenging. I won't lie. Sometimes it can be very hard to understand me from your point of view. Sometimes I can be very sarcastic (I'm still repenting daily for times I use hurtful sarcasm). Sometimes I can be the sweetest thing you'll ever meet. Sometimes I can be in your face, and sometimes I will shrink away. Sometimes I'm loud, and sometimes I'm quiet. Sometimes I joke, and sometimes I'm serious. But here is where I always stay the same; my heart. I have a heart for people. A certain compassion wells up inside of me, and I just want to cry FOR those people. They might not be able to cry, but I can certainly cry for them.

In daily life, I can be pretty fierce. But if you get me alone with someone who is pouring their heart out to me, or I hear a wrenching story...you will see me crying. No doubt. I have a tendency to carry their weight. People don't have a hard time talking to me usually, because whether I've been in their situation or not, I can understand them. If you've never seen me have a heart-to-heart with someone, you may think that that isn't a part of who I am. You may not see that compassion in me - but it is no doubt there.

Here is where the rubber meets the road: I will always love you. No matter what you do, think, or say, I will ALWAYS love you. If it is in my power, I will never leave you. I say quite often "I won't ditch you". It's true. I'm a people person. I can see and connect with what you are feeling. If I have never met you, but see what goes on in your life, I will cry for you. When I hear of someone dying, my heart goes out to them and their families. When someone I love goes through pain, it's as if it was happening to me. It's almost like their issues are my issues. It's important for me (and sometimes I forget) to always lay the burdens at my Papa's feet. It is harder than anything to carry those throughout life as if they were my own. I have to lay them down and trust God will handle it. I am letting you know this, so that when you see this side in me, it won't come as a surprise. And it won't alarm you. It's how I work. I can put aside my sense of humor and just let God use my compassion for people in that moment. I'm not being two-faced, in any way, I'm just shifting with Holy Spirit so He can do what He wants to do through me.