Passion

Maybe it's this way with everyone, but around this time (the beginning of the end of something) I get so restless. I want to go off on an adventure. I want to step into what God has for me. I long, very deeply, for passion and passionate people. Passion, around this time, becomes a must. After going to school for this long, I start to see what I need to be around to survive. Passion is one of those things.

I need to be around people who are passionately pursuing something. Passionately going after what is in their hearts. I just can't stand to sit still right now. I need that passion. And as much as it makes me ravishingly jealous of those passionate people when I'm around them, in order to get what they have I NEED to surround myself with them. I really can't describe the longing inside for passion. I need it - I want it - I MUST have it.

Honor

Honor:

personal integrity: strong moral character or strength, and adherence to ethical principles

respect: great respect and admiration

dignity: personal dignity that sometimes leads to recognition and glory

esteem somebody or something: to have or show great respect and admiration for somebody or something

keep promise: to keep a promise, or fulfill the terms of an agreement or contract

Whether we agree with someone or not; whether we think they deserve honor or not, it is up to us to be honorable to everybody we meet. We owe it. Everybody, whether they are saints or sinners, should be honored because they are children of the Most High. They belong to God. If you speak disrespectfully to someone, you're dishonoring God's child. If we realize who we belong to, it would be much easier to honor the people around us.

Honor is worth a lot. An honorable man is better than a rich man. Someone who's word is solid and true. Let's be honorable people and show respect to our brother's and sister's in everything we do. Trust me, I'm working on it too. I don't have it down yet...I have to constantly apologize for speaking to people disrespectfully. The point is - make an effort. Make it a lifestyle to be a person of honor. Humble yourself.

Honor isn't just about showing respect to someone greater than yourself. It's about showing respect to everyone. Even the lowest person. Get low, and God will raise you up.

Past Hopes

I have a lot of dreams. Lots. They're big and grand, and usually crazy. One of my dreams is to move to Ireland for a little while and learn some music there, and then come back to the states and record a CD called "The heart of the matter". I would want to go alone, live in a cottage close to a big field, and spend as much time as I can with Jesus. Weird, I know.

I see myself with a suitcase, my guitar, and my camera. I want so badly to go search out these places. Be in the midst of different cultures, learning everything I can from them! I want to learn piano, own a big room with wood floors where I can put a grand piano and a love seat - and just play music in there. I think piano is beautiful, and I regret not taking lessons as a child.

I want to own a restaurant - small and local - where I can minister to the people who come in. I would want to know all of the customers, and call them by name. Make them all feel loved. This dream isn't quite one that I'm striving for right now. I can't see how it fits into what I want to do in ministry...which is a bummer.