Where is home...?

For me, home really is where the heart is. My home isn't where I sleep, where I hang out, where I eat, where I play. It's where my heart is; with the people I love. I guess you could say I have many homes. But right now, I'd say my home is in Redding California. I was only there for 1 year, but the relationships I made there were deep and meaningful. I fell in love with them! They were such a big part of my journey to "grow up". I couldn't have asked for better friends and family.

My heart is torn now. I'm back with my parents and siblings in Florida, but it isn't the same. I think the roots I put down in California were deeper than I thought. So deep even, I sometimes wonder about moving there permanently (even though I know that isn't possible...at least not for a long time). And of course, I wouldn't do anything that wasn't in God's plan (not intentionally, anyway). But I do miss California like crazy! I miss the people. I miss feeling at home.

It's ok

Down on my knees, down on my face
You just say, it's ok
So many days I've thrown away
But you just say, it's ok
I don't think I could ever repay
Your perfect grace, but it's ok

It's ok. It's ok
It's ok, It's ok
You've become my embrace
Just tell me that it's ok
Your precious words intoxicate
A heart that aches, it's ok.

-Mute Math, OK

Revisiting Dreams

I realized this morning as I was "reflecting" on my life, that I have a lot of lost dreams; things I have just given up on. I guess I felt they could never come to pass. I wrote all of them down in my journal so I wouldn't forget this time. Dreams are important, and no matter how unattainable they may seem, they should sill be held close.

My biggest dream is my career (it's kind of a lot of little dreams thrown into one). I want to be a writer of books and a journalist for a magazine. I want to travel the world and write about the different cultures and people. With the money for some of my writings, I want to donate to charities and organizations that help Special Needs children and their families get the care that they need! I want to employ "Pay it Forward" in my life. I want to have enough money to bless people around me.

Another dream is to have a bakery/restaurant/cafe. I don't know how this would happen, or how I would fit it into my life...but it's something I've wanted to do my entire life!

Those are my big dreams. The dreams I want more than anything. I pray for opportunities to live my dreams everyday. I know Papa only wants the best for me, and He loves our happiness. I believe He will show me how to accomplish these dreams.