Gardens

"Jesus let me see Your eyes. Let me feel Your embrace. Let me feel You all around me. Like Moses I'm crying "show me Your glory". Let me see what he longed to see. And just like Mary, God I'm choosing the good part...to sit here at Your feet. Just to sit here at Your feet."

"I was made to gaze all of my days. I was made to gaze on beauty. My Beloved is beautiful."

-Cory Asbury

One thing I have learned this week is that nothing is sweeter than my time with Jesus. I know that's something I should have learned a long time ago, and perhaps it was head knowledge, but now I know. From the core of my being, I know nothing can top the love of my Beloved. I can see a change in myself and in the way I respond to Him, just by knowing that no one and nothing is better than Him.

I don't know how to explain it at all. Something has shifted this week. I can't talk about Jesus without a deep desire for Him, or worship without crying or laughing. I can't say "Jesus is so Holy" without knowing it, and letting it sink deep inside of me. Just saying "He is so good to me. He is so faithful to my heart" makes me smile, and even begin to laugh. When other people talk about Him, I smile as if they were talking about my husband. I smile because they're talking about the One I spend every day with...and I love Him so much. I want all of my time to be spent with Him.

He enjoys taking me different places. One place in particular is a beautiful garden. There is a single park bench that overlooks the entire garden. There are vines that grow all around the garden, with different color flowers, but lily's in particular (because they're my favorite). There's always a sunset. No matter how long we spend there, the sun always stays at the edge of the horizon. I think it's because He knows sunset is my favorite time of the day, and one of my favorite things about nature. It's just like Him, too, to want to show me all the things I love. He knows how to woo us; how to make His way into the whole of our hearts.

Another thing He enjoys doing with me, is kissing me on my nose and forehead. To me, that's an extreme sign of intimacy. I never ask Him to, or think about it before He does it. It's always unexpected, but so wonderful. I will lean into Him, He will usually tell me something He loves about me like "you're so adorable", and then- He wins me heart over and over again. He never abandons the wooing process. He likes to take His time, and win me over a step at a time. I enjoy every moment of it. Looking into His eyes, feeling His embrace, letting Him tell me I'm beautiful, dancing with Him - all of it brings me closer to Him. Ask Him to give you eyes to see Him - to see how He is trying to woo your heart.