Kind Of In Love

"She's as sweet as the summer time
And strong as the sunshine
And I don't want to know her
I let myself down."
-The Avett Brothers

These lyrics really make my heart pump. :) First of all, I've always wanted to be related to as summer time or sunshine. Just those nicknames alone make me turn away and blush. :/ No one ever sees my romantic side, or how much I really long for a special love. I'm like any little girl, dabbling in her mothers make-up and playing dress up, only that's not what I've ever been. I was a tomboy all through my life, and now as I'm getting older I feel like going back to childhood and sitting in my daddy's arms and just soaking in the love. Just playing the princess. I never wanted to be the princess in the story - but I do now. I want to be someone's sunshine. Someone's princess. But I don't want them to feel they can't know me for some reason. I always feel like, when I find a dashing young man, that I can never have one of my own. I know this is silly, but I have always felt this way. Like I'm not the sunshine, I'm not the sweet summer time, or the beauty. And I'm afraid that if someone ever sees me as that, they will be too afraid to pursue me ("And I don't want to know her. I let myself down.")

In the last few weeks my Papa has really begun to speak to my heart. He's showing me I really DO want that love, and it's wonderful to want that. I shouldn't feel embarrassed or wrong to desire that love from someone someday. And He's showing me my heart. He gave my dad the name "Sarah Eve" before I was born. He said "give that name to your first born daughter!" There is a reason I have this name. The meaning: Princess Life. :) It makes me smile now. I want to be someone's princess, and I intend to be one day.

To the men: Please, love your woman. She wants it badly. Love and beauty are just a part of a woman's heart. She needs to know she is loved and beautiful. Be the hero. Sweep her off her feet, you brave young men! Be her superhero. And as I pray for my own hero to come one day, I sit and wait in my Papa's love. He wraps me in Him. If the woman is in Him, travel through His heart, and you will find her.

"I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life."
-Frou Frou "Holding Out For A Hero"