Puzzle Pieces

As I'm writing this, I have no title for this post. I'm not sure what to call it, because I'm not sure how I'm going to say what I want to say. Have you ever had one of those moments where you were just at a loss for words? As a writer, that doesn't happen very often to me (just being real). But then you stumble upon a song, a verse or a poem that your heart connects with, and it seems to explain all the feelings in your heart better than you ever could? Yeah, that's what happened to me.

"Til Kingdom Come

Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheel just keeps on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me."

-Coldplay

That's one song that really touched the deep parts of my heart. Lately the Lord has been speaking to me about love. Letting someone in; lowering my wall that I've kept up to protect myself. Sometimes I forget that Jesus protects my heart better than I ever could. To pretend like that wall could do a better job than the Lord's strength is foolish of me. I know why I have that wall (sort of); I've made mistakes when it comes to relationships, and I'm afraid to make anymore. But without risk how can there be adventure? How can there be love? God risked everything for us, and now we experience the greatest love there ever was; the greatest adventure mankind could ever embark on! Without risk, there is no love; no adventure.

"The Thief

Your eyes are full

Full of the future of us
The air changes as you look across
At me in that wondering way

It is as if
I knew you before we spoke
Do our hearts know something we don't?
Conspiring, converging without giving us any say

You, sing me to sleep
Talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to

You're ruining me
With secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets from second-hand books
Playing the chords in me nobody knew how to play

It fits in your hand like water in rain
It unlocks our two different selves
And shows we are the same
Rather than wait `til I put me out for the taking
You're breaking into my heart
And I'm letting you."

-Brooke Fraser

This song in particular spoke to me. Like I said, love has been one of the things God has been strongly speaking to me about. I've been wondering lately what love really looks like. Does "love at first sight" really exist? I know people who believe in it, and I know people who believe it's only a fairytale. I'll tell you what I think. Is it possible that God makes two people specifically for each other? Creating both of them with the other one in mind? Creating them as puzzle pieces, fitting perfectly together? If that's possible, once they meet, since they were created for each other, they instantly feel that connection; that spark. As if they just found their missing puzzle piece. Maybe that's what love at first sight really is; finding the one who was fashioned just for you. Like the song says "It is as if I knew you before we spoke. Do our hearts know something we don't? Conspiring, converging without giving us any say." Our hearts sometimes know the answer before our heads do. And that's okay. (: