Come Back To Me

The last couple of weeks I've struggled to get into the secret place with God, which is incredibly uncommon for me. I can usually get to that place fast and easy, and feel totally refreshed after I "leave". I even found myself saying to God "I miss you", as if I couldn't even feel Him around me. That led to me sort of giving up on trying to press into Him, which, as I realize now, was the total opposite of what God wanted me to do. He wanted to see me press in even more for Him, searching Him out, not settling until I found Him. I caught on a few days ago when I was sitting on my bed in the morning. My morning routine, for quite a while now, has always included soaking with Him. So I found myself totally lost, because I didn't feel like pressing in and working for His presence. But in that moment of loss and confusion, I realized that I would rather press in and find Him (or if I didn't find Him, still say that I tried), than to not have Him at all!!

There are seasons in our lives. One season I've been very familiar with was "ease". Everything was easy and I really just had to wait on Him. Then there's this unfamiliar season of pushing, and waiting for a response. It's unsettling, but I think as long as I get Him in the end...it's totally worth it!