The long journey

It seems like I've realized more of who I am since school has been out than I did while school was in process. I haven't been surrounded by people all day. I've had to take a step back and examine my life. To be honest, some of the things I was presented with were shocking. My character was tested so many times in so many ways. I had to ask myself "why do I feel this way?" or "why am I acting like this" more times than I can count. It showed me who I could be if I took the high road, and who I could be if I took the low road.

There is no middle road. There is no room for lukewarmness. We must make a decision. Papa showed me how strong I am, and how capable I am. It helped me get through what I was struggling with. It helped me get back to His comfortable embrace.

What I battled with the most these past few weeks were my emotions. I seemed to be getting upset over the silliest things. I was letting people dictate my actions and my feeling, which is never a good thing. I called my dad at one point and he told me "Sarah, you have to ask yourself why you are so affected by what happened." Why would I get so upset over something so silly? Did I feel threatened? I began asking myself questions similar to those, and it only led to more and more questions that led to even more questions. Eventually I came to several conclusions, with the help of Holy Spirit.

It was a hard process, and it certainly isn't over. It seems to go on forever. But I'm finding out who I am and what I possess inside of me.